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Eddiesolds · 61-69, M
I felt like this this morning.. i wish he couldhqve just brought out a gun and blow.my head. Instead he beat me to the ground with his nasty evil words and it crushed me. I nearly quit my job. My boss wouldn't let me. Im dreading tomorrow. I hop3 this week goes quick
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Eddiesolds · 61-69, M
@PoetryNEmotion Truthfully..if i lose this job, ill never work for anyone ever again. Ill sell everything and dissapear. When money runs out. Suicide is on the list of mine.I cant go on.I wont go on.Theres no way.Ive felt this for a long time.This isnt a new thought. This isnt a pitty pot thing neither. If god cant forgive me, oh well.
PoetryNEmotion · F
@Eddiesolds Listen. I know you well enough. I can say this with love and compassion. Get to the doctor. Get your meds adjusted. You are having severe times more often. Suicide is NOT the solution. You are a good man. A good heart. An incredible soul. Your job is part of the problem. Yet you won't leave it. It gives you purpose. Money. If you want to hurt yourself, then you need to go to the hospital. Get assessed by a psychiatric doctor. Bring your meds. You will get help. I have told you this before. You are a man. An adult. You either take my words and use them or not. I cannot do more. You could call me or video chat with me. Yet you do not want to. What more can I say, Eddie? I care about you. You do not care enough about yourself. Light and love. And this has nothing to do with god or forgiveness. When it comes down to it whatever decision you make is, in the end, yours.
Eddiesolds · 61-69, M
@PoetryNEmotion Its not easy to pick up the phone to talk. Not with this much pain. Please try to understand.
PoetryNEmotion · F
@Eddiesolds You will do what you do, Eddie. I offered any assistance I may. I have to walk Sash. Get ready for work. Take care of you.
Eddiesolds · 61-69, M
@PoetryNEmotion I am. Have a nice walk. Wish i was going with you two
@Eddiesolds As hard as it is to talk... talking it through with someone who is trained to help you might help to at least get it all off your shoulders.
PoetryNEmotion · F
@Eddiesolds I am weary. Not enough sleep. I wish you were too. Get some help, Eddie. You deserve a better life. Only you can make it better.