Why is life so...BAD?

dont get me started on my family...THEY HATE ME. THEY CALK ME LAZY, IRRESPONSIBLE, I HATE YOU TO DAD. " Oh WhY dO yOu FlInCh LiKe wE aBuSe YoU?" WELL, MAYBE BECAUSE WHEN I WAS 7, DAD HIT ME WITH A SWITCH UNTIL I STARTED BLEEDING! like, just, love me. im bisexual. But my dad is homophobic. And my mom says "im to young to label myself."