Being an adult is such hard work...

@Wyocowboy thank you

@Mellowgirl You are welcome.

@Strictmichael75 I think my perspective my be warped on a lot of things. But I often feel excluded and consequently don't push myself forward or into things because I get rejected so much.
I dunno sometimes just being around others and quiet was enough to satisfy my need to feel apart of something. But then I was labelled sneaky or the weirdo...
I guess when your quiet you do become apprevy to things. And when the leader or the bully targets you and digs for information I wasnt always prepared for the fake kindness followed by the hidden agenda and or the blatant bullish bully who intimidated me.

I thought I worked on a lot of things but I've still got lots to deal with.

@Mellowgirl my best advice is to force yourself to stop caring. it’s been the best medicine for me. it’s not easy but .. i’ve had less stress and being in a quiet cocoon ( most of my life been under a microscope and in a loud , toxic environment. ) unless your looking for love and support , then don’t isolate yourself

hope you beat this !!! kick ass

@MartinTheFirst a word of advice sometimes it's better to not say anything at all. Especially when someone is feeling vulnerable. What you said can be seen as sarcastic. And like you're mocking.
But I feel sometimes you do this as an attempt to gain attention...
And its incredibly insensitive, unfair and selfish.
People here love to say "well life isn't fair" but it's a really nasty way to poo poo over someone's feelings and not be held accountable for the hurt you've caused another.

I would prefer that you read this and if you really do need to respond message me instead. But I hope you'll leave it today since you can hear how upset I really am.