This year.....all it was
This year has been nothing but shit, but it was shit that I had to go through.. It was shit that was inevitably going to happen, and that I feared happening for so long.. it just had to happen at some point.. it was shit that ended the circle I was endlessly running through and it just freed me, well partially freed me, but still.. I have always known that whenever this cycle is going to be broken, that it is going to be so tough, bad and messy.. It is why i felt depressed all the time, because I knew the end is not going to be pretty, no matter what happens...
I hate to whine all the time on here about the same thing over and over again.. but since I am refusing to talk to anyone in real life about what happened, I will let it out here... This year is approaching an end, and soon I will be a year older too. Last year I told myself, that I will be somewhere different when this time comes this year, well I said it but I knew deep down it wasn't true.. But even if I am not somewhere different, it will all still feel and taste different. This year has a mixture of shitty feelings with a splash of freedom and relief.
I hate to whine all the time on here about the same thing over and over again.. but since I am refusing to talk to anyone in real life about what happened, I will let it out here... This year is approaching an end, and soon I will be a year older too. Last year I told myself, that I will be somewhere different when this time comes this year, well I said it but I knew deep down it wasn't true.. But even if I am not somewhere different, it will all still feel and taste different. This year has a mixture of shitty feelings with a splash of freedom and relief.
31-35, F
