What do you really want in life?

I want peace. I used to say happiness but it ain't just that. "Happy" is definitely great but there's no such thing as 100% happiness. We'll always have our good days & our bad ones. So now I realize all I want, is peace. To have peace in myself & be content with who I am/where I am is my biggest goal in life. If I die.. as long as I have that first, then I can say I died happy.

I once yelled at someone because they told me they saw me having so many cars one day, a huge house, a rich life. I yelled at them that I didn't want any of that shit I just wanted to be happy. I was so irritated & bothered by their expectations because I couldn't believe in myself like other people did. In my head I'm like "why would you put that shit on me when I can't even find a will to be here?"

I'm glad I don't feel as bad as I used to. I'd love to have a bunch of cars one day.. a family, a nice home. But all of that is nothing without having peace in yourself.