Think I’m to the point in existence where someone needs to love me or just fkn kill me.

I’m tired. My soul is tired.

I’m not fit for a relationship and I know it, but I wonder how much more alone I can be before it destroys me. I know nobody is gonna come into my life and help, people don’t care like that anymore. And it doesn’t matter how hard I’ve tried, it’s just how life turned out. My last human on earth that at least cared about my son is in the hospital now. Everyone else is dead 😂 Who would want a single mom with no family or friends? Just looks like a red flag. But them bitches died on me and I’ve tried so hard to keep my strength up, I am completely burnt out though. Nobody wants that. I don’t blame them. But what can I do? I’ll never be more than my pain at this point.