Its Been 6 Months

Since my father had passed away, and its really effecting me. I hate how much it does...It feels like he shouldn't be gone although he was never in my life...and it doesn't feel like its been 6 months either. I don't want it to be 6 months, I want to be able to talk to him and ask him why, ask him questions...Now I can't. I want him here, even if I never got to see him in my life ever again.