Some of the times maybe through telling other people to stay alive I'm actually just trying to convince myself to do the same.

Understood. If you believe in others, there is a part of you that hopes and believes in your self. I’m the same? I live strong, but I am my worst enemy. Keep loving, May you accept your “shortcomings” your own “mistakes” and be patient with yourself

I have been there too. I find that by helping others through things we are helping ourselves a bit too.

Death is boring