Trying to live!!

I'm tired from my life, my family
I give them love they give me haterd
Their words, their behaviors toward me
I'm sick of it..
I just wanna live my life like normal people..
Love like normal People.. Eat, drink, breath..
I want to do what I love, study what I like, go where I love
Its suffocating..
Need to end my life but am afraid that God may not love me and leave me alone coz am already alone.. I want you God so accept me please!