I can’t believe I’ve wasted my entire life filling it with trash

@mynameisray vent a little? What do you mean?

@NestChicken why do you feel like your life is over? And what makes you think you’ve wasted it?

@mynameisray it’s simple I wasted my life doing something I didn’t want to do to show off. In the process I ended up stuck in a job I hate and if I want to change I’ll have to start all over again.

@NestChicken I would ask what do you do for a living but if it’s no interest to you then no point in asking. Why do you consider yourself, someone in their mid thirties to be at the end of the career or life path? You have almost the same number of years you’ve had so far (plus more if you disregard everything below the age of 18) to do it over…have you thought about speaking with someone on how you can truly start the career you want? Some people wait and the way till their last moments in life to make a change so it’s never to late until that heart stops…!

@mynameisray I feel like thrashing and hurting myself as much as possible, it’s too painful to carry it. Yes I’m talking but it won’t happen fast enough and now I have to suffer like this for years to come torment it is TORTURE and TORMENT

@mynameisray that I created for myself. Can you imagine how much I want to destroy myself

@NestChicken I’m sorry you feel that way dude. I really am. Have you thought about talking to someone, not necessarily have them give advice but just an ear for someone to listen to you? It might help. Just the relief of not having it all bottled inside you.

@mynameisray been through all that before, I’m just trapped in my own prison I made and built for myself. The faker

@mynameisray do you see how much I hate myself now? Many have fled because of the hatred I have for myself