Every lie, every bad thing I've done... it all came out in the open last night. I've hurt people, and I've hurt myself. I take full responsibility for everything that's happened up to this point. I'm going to voluntarily admit myself into the BMU tomorrow. I have someone who's going with me. I'm going to detox and get off these pills. I want my life back. I'm tired of not knowing where I'm going to be sleeping each night. I'm tired of lying. I've become a bad person. When it happens in small increments, you can be in really deep before you know it. It's time to get my shit together before I lose everything and everyone I love. It might be a week or so, but it has to be done. I know that no one here is really following my situation, but I still want to write this out somewhere. Writing down my thoughts and feelings is how I get through stuff. I've got a lot to get through, and I know where to start.
the first step to change is to admit you have a problem and to acknowledge what you’ve done. Drugs blunt the conscience. Get clean of that and you’ll have a fresh start in life.
