Just living life

There is this genetic test that I think I should do (although on some level I feel it can be pointless), but I can't be bothered to do it now. I am so overwhelmed with everything that's going on, the last thing I need is to fret over the results.. Also if the results happen to contain something that isn't good, I really do not want to know it before my trip... I need to relax and I am really counting on this trip to have me detach from the stress I am having daily since the start of this year.. It would be nice though if I did the test and had everything alright, it would give me positive vibes before I leave for my trip.. ugh.. I wish I was like normal people, who can just relax and not worry much.. Hope for the best and expect it.. I am always so pessimist and expect worse case scenario....