Those times when you want things to change but it's out of your control

It's been getting to me recently. I finally got the application process done for this job (took weeks) I'm waiting on the decision now, hopefully next week. I'm so tired of worrying about basic stability though, I feel like I wanna cry sometimes.

I need some good luck, I put on a face especially here but it's been really hard for me. I'd like a stable job and a relationship but I can only do what I can. I try and stay positive but it's tough sometimes, I feel like I don't know if I can cope if more bad things happen. I don't know what that looks like but it worries me. Had enough hard times in my life tbh.

All I can do is wait at this point, try not to worry and worst comes to worst I try again.