Help! Any advice to help me go on in my life??

My parents are divorced, I have one brother from the same mom and three siblings from my father.
I live alone with my mom and brother.
I have schizoaffective disorder..
My family hates me.. They've said it many times (I'm making them sad and unhappy)
They feel ashamed of me.. Saying I have to stay at home
They're fighting because of me.. Every time
They are sick because of me..
I admit, I loved them but they didn't.. Ever!
I only want to wish them happiness ever after..!
They keep on telling me that am useless and worthless
This feeling kills me..
I wanted to run away but I have no place to go
For them, am just a burden on their shoulders trying to get rid of

Any help??

REMsleep · 41-45, F

Sometimes people say things they don't mean when they really mean something else. I can't know your personal situation but I'll bet that someone in your family loves you.
Even people with your disorder can live alone. You will need alot of help maybe from government programs and social workers but you can become independent?
Why do you feel that people in your family dislike you?