My day.. feelings .. thoughts.. etc.
I hate this mood I usually wake up in, when I have had a nap.. I do not usually have naps.. It hasn't been the case for a very long period of time, especially since for the past years, I'd spend my entire day outside the house, but even before that, I'd work most of the day and get home late anyway.. So whenever I have naps, I wake up in a weird, nostalgic, confused, sad, and melancholic mood 🤷♀️ I don't know why, especially when I wake up in a dark room around sunset..
I couldn't sleep last night, and even though I decided not to go to work today, i still woke up around 8 by myself - I REALLY wish I would oversleep by accident somehow sometime - But my body and brain seem to be so alarmed recently, so I sleep very little and that's enough to wake me up.. Good thing I woke up early anyway, because I had to take care of a personal matter for my sister, and I didn't want to keep her wait, as she was extremely worried and in a shitty position.. So went out early, finished what I had to do, and then treated myself with breakfast at Starbucks (not my favourite place to have breakfast, but I was close to a branch where I used to study IELTS and study for my exam, so felt good to be back there), and then a good lunch that I cooked back at home... but I was extremely exhausted and had a bad headache, especially that I am also not feeling well... So I tried, and slept for an hour and woke up again all by myself, all weird, awkward and sad.. But my headache is gone..
I just hope I can sleep tonight, because it looks to me like I am gonna be on here all night, then will go half asleep to work tomorrow... That's okay, it is Friday anyway, but I plan to work hard and get done with tomorrow.
I couldn't sleep last night, and even though I decided not to go to work today, i still woke up around 8 by myself - I REALLY wish I would oversleep by accident somehow sometime - But my body and brain seem to be so alarmed recently, so I sleep very little and that's enough to wake me up.. Good thing I woke up early anyway, because I had to take care of a personal matter for my sister, and I didn't want to keep her wait, as she was extremely worried and in a shitty position.. So went out early, finished what I had to do, and then treated myself with breakfast at Starbucks (not my favourite place to have breakfast, but I was close to a branch where I used to study IELTS and study for my exam, so felt good to be back there), and then a good lunch that I cooked back at home... but I was extremely exhausted and had a bad headache, especially that I am also not feeling well... So I tried, and slept for an hour and woke up again all by myself, all weird, awkward and sad.. But my headache is gone..
I just hope I can sleep tonight, because it looks to me like I am gonna be on here all night, then will go half asleep to work tomorrow... That's okay, it is Friday anyway, but I plan to work hard and get done with tomorrow.
31-35, F
