People don't understand

it's impossible for most of you.... hell I live it and I don't get it.

I feel like life was stolen from me.... before it began, and that I've been fighting to take it back piece by piece. And even though I've never been closer to feeling alive, I'm feeling like I've never been farther away....

I hate trying to fill this void with things that don't belong. But it hurts to much to leave it empty. I always end up worse.... I need to stop trying to get close to people, just keep the current ones close and shut out the rest