Who am I ?

I appreciate all of the feedback, So it’s like this…. My psychologist is away on holidays till the start of February, my hypnotherapist has just been diagnosed with Covid and my dietitian is on Maternity leave; so I’ve decided after 85days as a non smoker I’m returning to being a smoker first thing tomorrow morning

I agree that it might be a good idea to talk to a counselor about this. Other factors you might be going through that aren’t described here probably are affecting your ability to form a sense of solid identity that you feel good about.

You are not alone in trying to recreate yourself or trying to find yourself.

Only way out is to keep trying until you find it

This sounds very sad and maybe something to consult a professional about. All the best to you.