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Since I was 15, I can't be alone. I can't be alone in the fact I always need a guy around. Someone to talk to. Someone to give me attention and make me feel excited whilst my everyday life bores me. It's not normal but I haven't gone a few weeks without having a guy I talk to online. It's always online. I get bored one night and reply to a guy and next thing you know we are talking for a couple months. Then he says he likes me and I back out because I realise I probably don't like him I just am a lonely person. I hate this problem and can I really blame my past? Is it to do with that I stopped seeing my dad at 15 (even though I don't miss him), or that I don't have many friends? Or is it to do with me and that im a selfish person who requires a lot of attention? Who knows. All I know is I feel incomplete and unsatisifed when I don't have a guy im talking to online and whilst I don't want to lead anyone on this ALWAYS happens. Life is predictable at this point and boring. Why is life worth living

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firefall · 61-69, M

If I had to guess, I'd guess that it's a lot to do with your father withholding affection from you as a little kid (i.e. under-10), and inadvertently teaching you this pattern. It doesnt sound like selfishness, (I think you'd respond positively to someone saying they like you, if it was)

But, life will change. It's the only thing you can really guarantee, that life always changes.

youprobablydontknowme · 26-30, F

Wow how did you know that 😮😅 okay, thank you:)

firefall · 61-69, M

@youprobablydontknowme: Well really I'm just pulling a guess out of my arse,based on other people I've known: I dont have any special training or anything.

youprobablydontknowme · 26-30, F

@firefall: lol, well it looks like it 😄

firefall · 61-69, M

@youprobablydontknowme: the advantage of reading obsessively for 50 years 😆

youprobablydontknowme · 26-30, F

@firefall: Haha I see how it is 👀