Personal

Since I was 15, I can't be alone. I can't be alone in the fact I always need a guy around. Someone to talk to. Someone to give me attention and make me feel excited whilst my everyday life bores me. It's not normal but I haven't gone a few weeks without having a guy I talk to online. It's always online. I get bored one night and reply to a guy and next thing you know we are talking for a couple months. Then he says he likes me and I back out because I realise I probably don't like him I just am a lonely person. I hate this problem and can I really blame my past? Is it to do with that I stopped seeing my dad at 15 (even though I don't miss him), or that I don't have many friends? Or is it to do with me and that im a selfish person who requires a lot of attention? Who knows. All I know is I feel incomplete and unsatisifed when I don't have a guy im talking to online and whilst I don't want to lead anyone on this ALWAYS happens. Life is predictable at this point and boring. Why is life worth living