Frustrations
I used to use EP to vent, it's the same for this place too. I didn't have anyone back then, even if I do now I don't think I can truly 100% vent to them.
I feel mean, I dont want to upset them at all even if I do it accidentally currently. They've been through a lot and I'm always there to help but sometimes I feel like I'm making it worse. Lately it feels like I'm always on the verge of tears like I'll just breakdown at any inconvenience... I tried to talk to him about it but he changed the subject because there was nothing to add and he was upset with the outcome. He tries to help me and I appreciate it, I truly do. Its just sometimes I feel like I will lash out at him because of a misunderstanding and I feel horrible I hold it in as much as I can but then he will call me 5 times to wake me up and talk so I get angry again.
He is a great person for me even if sometimes we have our spats but even right now trying to vent to him is difficult especially when I'm venting about him...
Last night he was very angry and it's hard to talk To him when he is like that, he doesn't make decisions so I have to decide. Then he gets bored so I pick something new and it seems like there Is progress but nothing. I couldn't do that last night, he treats me like a child when he is like that calls me like a kid and that's his thing I get it but It makes me feel bad.
Today I feel horrible because I didn't spend time with him or try to help
Sorry I was spelling my thoughts out as they came so this is a mess but it made me feel better so that's cool I guess
I feel mean, I dont want to upset them at all even if I do it accidentally currently. They've been through a lot and I'm always there to help but sometimes I feel like I'm making it worse. Lately it feels like I'm always on the verge of tears like I'll just breakdown at any inconvenience... I tried to talk to him about it but he changed the subject because there was nothing to add and he was upset with the outcome. He tries to help me and I appreciate it, I truly do. Its just sometimes I feel like I will lash out at him because of a misunderstanding and I feel horrible I hold it in as much as I can but then he will call me 5 times to wake me up and talk so I get angry again.
He is a great person for me even if sometimes we have our spats but even right now trying to vent to him is difficult especially when I'm venting about him...
Last night he was very angry and it's hard to talk To him when he is like that, he doesn't make decisions so I have to decide. Then he gets bored so I pick something new and it seems like there Is progress but nothing. I couldn't do that last night, he treats me like a child when he is like that calls me like a kid and that's his thing I get it but It makes me feel bad.
Today I feel horrible because I didn't spend time with him or try to help
Sorry I was spelling my thoughts out as they came so this is a mess but it made me feel better so that's cool I guess
22-25, F
