I’m so tired

I don’t even know anymore...
I’m supposed to be starting therapy soon but I don’t know if that will even help..everything’s just blank, all the time. I don’t know what I want, when I want something, I can’t even make myself do the dishes most days. I don’t know what’s wrong with me and my brain.
I’ve been taking anti depressants for 6 years, switching medication when I feel like it’s not working anymore, and sometimes the medicine helped, and I would feel ok, I guess nothings working now.
And it’s not that I want to kill myself, either, so no one has to worry (not that any of you would care) but that’s really not it, it’s just blank in my mind; not even a black and white thought or picture screaming out to please bring the colour back— it’s just blank.

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Lostpoet · M

You need to get out go to the movies or dinner or something and you'll feel better.

Flowers90 · 26-30, F

I think it’s more than that lol I’ve been like this
for years @Lostpoet

Lostpoet · M

@Flowers90 I have too and getting out in the sunshine and getting back to yourself will help more than you think. I've lost months and years of my life not even wanting to get out of bed. Do what ever you can to break the chain of monotony don't let any of these feelings ruin your best years.