Sometimes crying is a necessity
I am used to handle everything on my own. I learn that the only person you can count on is yourself and that if you set your mind and heart to something, you will eventually succeed.
But I've been having a hard time lately that it is so hard for me to be positive or to think straight. Work is driving me insane but it is my only escape. My family is more like housemates. My relationship starts to get cold. I don't feel the drive to do anything. It is exhausting to pretend you are okay when you are not. So one day I just couldn't handle it anymore. I went to the Fire Exit and spent at least 1 hour crying my eyes out, just sitting on the stairs. I hate feeling unkind to myself but it is necessary sometimes.
After 1 hour, sure I felt tired and I looked like crap, but I felt so much better. Then I remember what I always tell people, "Nothing lasts forever, so this shall pass too."
But I've been having a hard time lately that it is so hard for me to be positive or to think straight. Work is driving me insane but it is my only escape. My family is more like housemates. My relationship starts to get cold. I don't feel the drive to do anything. It is exhausting to pretend you are okay when you are not. So one day I just couldn't handle it anymore. I went to the Fire Exit and spent at least 1 hour crying my eyes out, just sitting on the stairs. I hate feeling unkind to myself but it is necessary sometimes.
After 1 hour, sure I felt tired and I looked like crap, but I felt so much better. Then I remember what I always tell people, "Nothing lasts forever, so this shall pass too."
41-45, F
