Always been a fighter and a coward.

Between everything going on at home right now, feeling lonesome and broken up, she had to tell me she has heart problems. Nobody can afford her surgery, meds, tests and all...I just don't know what to do. People say I should leave my "home" but I'll end up homeless, definitely disowned by my family, I want to save as much as I can on my own so she can have a fighting chance to live her life, but...it's a lot to carry. Idk just need a huge ass miracle to sort this shit out.
I don't want to give up, want to fight for my mission but holy hell it's so easy to fall into the groove of how miserable life is right now.