I hate myself.

@PhoenixPhail well, it happens now and then, not so much right now tbh.

@InvisibleGirl Good. I'm glad it's settled down. At least for now.

@PhoenixPhail I’ve matured a lot since then (though some might not agree).

@InvisibleGirl Don't you find it's a variable - that it comes and goes?

@PhoenixPhail I’ve always been inconsistent emotionally. Well, maybe not always, but I’m learning to be more emotionally consistent.

@InvisibleGirl I think that's just the natural ebb and flow of it. And, how would you know loving yourself if you didn't hate yourself sometimes? Without contrast, we wouldn't be able to know [i]anything[/i] about ourselves.

@PhoenixPhail So in other words, you don’t want me to stop hating myself then? Lol.

@InvisibleGirl I think recognising when you feel hatred for yourself, is useful - as a guide post, not a hitching post. It's your feeling which inform you of your proximity to your true being, which is love. That's where you'll find [i]everything[/i] in your life you desire. The feeling of hating yourself, is just an indicator you've drifted off course a bit. But, you need to feel that to know you have. Otherwise, you would remain off course.

@PhoenixPhail That all makes sense, really. Hate isn’t ever positive I try not to use the word actually. Thank you! ☺️

@InvisibleGirl I'm glad it makes sense to you. When I talk about such things to some people, they want to have me collected in a butterfly net. It's not been easy for me to find people who live in my world. So many have been indoctrinated into robots. 🤖

@PhoenixPhail Would you fit in a butterfly net? Indoctrinated how?

@InvisibleGirl Oh, I'm sure [i]someone's[/i] got a butterfly net big enough for me. Indoctrinated mostly through the media, regarding what and how to think, what to wear, how to look and behave, who's advice to follow, and how.... That kind of thing.

@PhoenixPhail Can it really be called a butterfly net if it’s big enough to capture a person? Oh, the media is trash. 😂 Lol.

@InvisibleGirl Yeah, I guess it can.
A lot of people seem that flighty.

And yes, the media IS trash.