Would you love me

[quote]I hide my fractured soul.
With anger.
You've noticed a change.
But never knew the reasoning.
No longer do you reach out for me.[/quote]

I know this all too well,

Having to tune to the world's needs, moods and expectations while they are completely disconnected from the damage you suffering alone.

Forget it, pretend , go on..

When you do show it, people either take advantage of you, pretend to sympathize or can't even bother to try to understand.

They see their greatest fear[b], anyone can be a victim,[/b] and they push it away.

Lot of people are afraid of actually connecting to you. That's a truth.

They feel guilt, they don't want to feel their own helplessness or admit it.

They let go , they forget your pain, making someone else's pain your own means putting yourself in their place.

I sometimes tell myself don't blame them, I don't like it here either. I don't like my place and I don't like my past.

I don't like that I was betrayed by a society that thinks itself righteous, caring, safe and just. That's exactly what it is each time a child is a victim. A social betrayal.

I don't like that I love a world which I feel betrayed me and robbed me out of innocence. I don't like that it broke my heart.

But I, as someone who KNOWS what this pain is like, have an obligation to not look away. I will look at this raw pain as many times I need to ,and I will always try to make this world a better place.

Which can mean, often, I will have to build walls again around me. And I 'll keep those like me within because there isn't anywhere for us we can call home. There is only hope for one in a better world.