What has value? What should I do today?

What matters?

I could sit indoors all day does it really matter?

should I try live a "happier", more eventful life?

I should try to help my situation as best I can, even if that happens to be staying indoors.

I can't see much opportunity for "reward" around me, not unless I become senselessly extroverted. None of this matters.

The only thing I see value in is playing the lottery. Imagine just having £1 mill in your bank account. suddenly your life goes from mundane/pointless to... everything you want, no work, hedonism every day, go wherever you want, buy anything you want...