I can never comprehend how others find the will to live.

What's the point of all these for all there is now is suffering?

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I can't/won't give up. So, I can either struggle to have more good moments in my life that make it worth living. Or struggle anyway and watch my life get worse.

emereese · 26-30

@AmbivalentFriability but I don't see point in the struggle. Is it really worth it?

AmbivalentFriability · 26-30

@emereese Unless you plan on dying any time soon, yes.

emereese · 26-30

@AmbivalentFriability I wish tha can be an option

AmbivalentFriability · 26-30

@emereese Considering that it is not, your options are to continue to feel hopeless and shitty, or to feel hopeless and shitty while taking small steps forward and begin taking your life back and getting what you want and deserve out of life. Feeling better, and more hopeful is possible. I used to literally have such severe anxiety that I would have full on panic attacks just trying to talk to people online, and going to the grocery store was a nightmare. I used to also have a speech impediment so severe that I quite literally barely spoke because it just felt so defeating and was so difficult. But now I have a full-time job, I bought a nice car a few months ago, and I do everything on my own, and I don't wake up absolutely loathing myself anymore. It is literally the most challenging and exhausting thing I have ever done, but it has been worth it.

I promise that it's possible.

emereese · 26-30

@AmbivalentFriability That's awesome 😊 I'm glad you're king great now. I wish I can believe that things will get better again. I really wish.