When was your lowest point in life?

I don’t really know but at 13 I was looking for ways to kill my self online but I never found any , I was sad all the time and I was self harming and I didn’t know why I felt like that , I was overwhelmed and I just wanted to run away from home , I was getting dark thoughts and I wanted people to hurt me sexually and I didn’t get why , my behaviour at school was terrible and I was skipping class and I kept failing every single class , I didn’t want to learn or do anything. I was being bullied at home by my mums husband and at school I was being bullied so I turned to bad behaviour as away of coping with that and away of telling people I needed help. At that time depression and talk of sucide was a taboo subject and nobody took me seriously because of my age. At 14 I attempted sucide and wanted to kill myself at 15 I was in a mental hospital for my sucide attempts. Then I stopped acting on them at 17 through the fear of being sectioned as they told me that would happen if I tried it again. But I fight sucidal thoughts everyday