Im going to kill myself.

My daughter is showing signs of autism and I'm still getting no help at all just meetings that don't lead to anything. I've stopped crying now there are no more tears. I've had to resort to carrying a bag around in the house to hold.my money and personal items because my daughter now steals of me and my son tried to break my charger with his teeth. He also pushes over furniture and doesn't pick.it up. Im not entitled to respite and and I have no babysitting at all.absolutely none. I have to leave my angry son in charge of the younger ones because I can't work otherwise. This is too much and the only way out is me topping myself.