I Like Myself Better When I Drink

This sounds bad. But drinking, being buzzed, it feels like it solves all of my problems. I know it doesn’t obviously. I know that’s dangerous thinking but it’s true. I don’t feel depressed when I drink. I don’t feel any negative feelings when i’m drinking other then the obvious hangover the next day.

And the thing is I’ve been through a lot of medications, I have been medicated for being bipolar, medicated for having an anxiety disorder, for depression and alcohol does 100 times more than prescription pills ever did.

I wish alcohol wasn’t my only solution for these problems nothing really seems to work quite as well as drinking. Really wish I could just find a medication that suits me so I don’t have to think about this anymore.