And how I've turned to be ?

Life started thoughtless as a child, then Directed and concentrated thoughts,with all logic and philosophy and now I'm 20 sitting thoughtless all day, blank, neither happy nor sad...Just feeling all that's going around. I don't Will anything , I'm just flowing through what comes on... I don't try to change anything, leave it as it is and simply smile. A little hope. Not much to dream or imagine at all.