How do you feel when you are disappointing your parents?

How do you overcome it?

I tried to please my dad so hard but once I fall, I was labelled as failed.

No one wants to disappoint their parents but sometimes they pushed too much over the limit.

I'm not sure how does he see me now. He seems despise me.

I wanna leave him but, he is not healthy. He always got hospitalised.

I wanna look after him, but the words he projected to me like he wants me vanish.

I feel bad, angry and sad. I'm so messed up.