uniqueness1 · F
I am sorry you are going through this. Losing a friend is never easy. And I too tend to use SW to vent anonymously. I have one question, I am not sure if I've missed it on your post, but why do you continue being a 'bad friend' and think you will have the greatest friends in the world?
Wishing you well, and healing.
Wishing you well, and healing.
three · 22-25, T
@uniqueness1 i do my best, but i have little experience with friendships, and bad mental health as well as intense love for a person can really blind you to the bad things you're doing. I don't want to be a bad friend. I care, and I try to be good. But I make mistakes, and I made bad decisions sometimes. and as good as my intentions are, it doesn't change the experience that people have being my friend. i'm trying to recognise my flaws and work on them. i was a bad friend. but i hope i'm getting better. i really am trying to get better.
i do not expect my friends to be perfect. of course i don't. as i said, i will forgive anything they do. and yes, part of that is fear of abandonment, but also, it's love, and understanding that people makes mistakes, and that's okay.
i hope that answers your question.
i do not expect my friends to be perfect. of course i don't. as i said, i will forgive anything they do. and yes, part of that is fear of abandonment, but also, it's love, and understanding that people makes mistakes, and that's okay.
i hope that answers your question.
uniqueness1 · F
You seem to have a good and kind heart behind that 'facade'.... that's good. that's a good start. Don't give up. If it's too late for that friend, then be better for the next friend that comes along.
MayorOfCrushtown · M
SW-User
Oh you are going through the same thing that happeed to me one year ago. I bet one day you are gonna muster that courage and leave their ass to not be the one left.
Ps It's alright being alone, you can meet other people
Ps It's alright being alone, you can meet other people