Why do I feel so different

@Peaceful Laced means mixed with other drugs and tree is marijuana.

@justicexoxoxo what other drugs were mixed in?

@Peaceful Idk, i just know there was something else in there because it looked different. Im not trying to just keep talking about drugs here, thats sketchy but I just know it was. The post itself wasnt mainly about smoking though that had a factor in how i feel now. its my anxiety just being out of control. my body and mind cant handle it. Think of a computer with a certain memory space and trying to download large files anyways and squeeze for space, the computer will go slow, malfunction and etc. Thats exactly how i feel my mind is doing to me right now with my anxiety and depression.

@justicexoxoxo I'm asking because I'm guessing what you took has thrown your neurotransmitters out of whack and this is why you're feeling this way.

@Peaceful But I dont think me smoking it was the cause. ive done things before. I think with the stresses in my life now and my anxiety being through the roof, my intake of what I took just opened the gates for anxiety to come through like a welcome home party. Its as if since ive smoked it my neurotransmitters refused to fight or flight my anxiety where before it was willing to fight my anxiety and now it just gives up as soon as the anxiety enters in like the smoking made my defense in my mind weaker so its easier for my anxiety to infiltrate the functions of my brain. I do have some understanding of neurotransmitters and know how sensitive it can be. For someone like me who has severe anxiety it only takes one really stressful situation or one terrible decision like smoking what I smoked for like you said my neurotransmitters to go out of whack.

@justicexoxoxo sometimes there's a tipping point. Why are you messing with stuff like this if you have severe anxiety?

@Peaceful Well at first when I was younger it was coping mechanism and little did I know at the time doing things like that probably made it worse and the ironic thing was I did it then because my anxiety wasnt as severe. It is truly ironic that its worse now partially due to the things I took in the past when I was younger. I never had trouble with weed like that though, its because it was laced but i also smoked it in not a good mindset, my anxiety was already sky high when I smoked it. Like i said it isnt just things i took, my life situations and other factors have made my anxiety this severe, not just things i smoked or took. Im hoping I recover from this and I didnt totally microwaved my neurotransmitters and completely fried it up to the point where i wont feel the same again. I know grey matters have something to do with it too and through my research have heard it is mostly reversible through exercise, change in diet and other factors which Ive tried with all my efforts but some times i feel its not enough. Im just afraid my brain chemistry doesnt get used to it. When a brain gets used to something its hard to get out of that pattern like muscle memory except its actually just your memory for this case which is even worse.

@justicexoxoxo tell me what your diet looks like now. And exercise will help, some drugs are fat soluble and get stored. So if you lose that weight, you may feel a bit weird again, but that's the drugs coming out.

@Peaceful Well in a few minutes Im actually about to go for a jog on my treadmill now. I like to do it every day or at least every other day. Lately ive been eating bad, a lot of greasy, fatty instant foods. I need to change that. People dont realize how much of a difference it makes when you eat healthy compared to not eating healthy. Some times that is hard because eating healthy and getting the proper calories and all your nutrients can be expensive. Sometimes you just work with what you got and some times it isnt the best but I do try. Im trying to try harder and add fiber to my diet every breakfast, eat some kind of fruit daily and drink a lot of water to detox my system so Ive been doing my due diligence and trying trust me. I dont just sit here and wallow in this mental prison but it gets tiring some times when you do all that, you sit down and realize you still feel the same.

@justicexoxoxo it takes time. But I hear you. Broccoli and leafy greens would serve you well. I wish you luck.

@Peaceful Thank you! Youre right. I try to convince myself Ill notice it when im not paying attention like one day ill stop myself and go whoa wait a minute i feel different again. Ill get this deja vu feeling but backwards if you know what I mean. As if i used to feel normal like this before and now im back type of deal.