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rckt148 · 61-69, M
I am finally coming through the pain
And life is not all dark
If I knew then what I know now
i'd do it again ,it was better to have known that kind of love and lost it
then to have never known that type of love at all
She broke me ,
But the master potter breaks the old clay anyway ,
He is still working on the new me ,not quite there yet
but I have been through the fire a few times
And life is not all dark
If I knew then what I know now
i'd do it again ,it was better to have known that kind of love and lost it
then to have never known that type of love at all
She broke me ,
But the master potter breaks the old clay anyway ,
He is still working on the new me ,not quite there yet
but I have been through the fire a few times
rckt148 · 61-69, M
@SW-User I got what you meant
When I am broken I am a wounded animal most need to avoid
But I am always reflecting and going over all the would haves ,should have,
could have .
And for a time I blame everything one me ,and my pain is so intense
the last time I had a real heart attack ,and then they put me in an institution until I ate and slept right again ,they said I was trying to commit suicide by starvation .
I lost my girls and then my Mom passed away shortly after ,it was to much
She knew Mom was going at any time ,I was going through testing for cancer ,
I was also dealing with an addict I was trying to be there for
It was a lot to take at one time ,,so when I broke ,I was broken .
Feeling betrayed ,it came out Mom was stirring trouble with my siblings even on her death bed ,
my kids knew it was coming but they didn't warn me
So I shut every one out of my life for 2 years ,
My Youngest stopped by to bring me food ,make sure I had clean clothes ,she had my ATM card so she paid my bills for me
So I came out of it a different man ,,and I don't recommend it for everyone
But now I know who I am ,why I am alive ,exactly what I want out of life and the type of woman I would like to share it with ,and now I have peace of mind .I still miss my girl ,but I am going to see her soon and let her know I still love her but I don't blame her ,that was a lot to be in the middle of .
If I ever loved you ,I always will
Now my family and I are close ,they know to never hold things back from me or to lie to me or I can live without them .
I know now I am never alone ,,someone was in the fire with me
I was a cry baby before ,always crying about all I have lost ,
how life is not fair ,bitter over all the takers .
Now I have a path ,and sometimes it seems lonely
But if thats what it took for me to see how blessed I am ,It was worth it
As I said ,,I would do it all again ,,I am not the same man that went into the furnace ,but it did come close to killing me ,I am much stronger now
And by the way ,thanks for the kindness
I now appreciate that a lot more now days too
When I am broken I am a wounded animal most need to avoid
But I am always reflecting and going over all the would haves ,should have,
could have .
And for a time I blame everything one me ,and my pain is so intense
the last time I had a real heart attack ,and then they put me in an institution until I ate and slept right again ,they said I was trying to commit suicide by starvation .
I lost my girls and then my Mom passed away shortly after ,it was to much
She knew Mom was going at any time ,I was going through testing for cancer ,
I was also dealing with an addict I was trying to be there for
It was a lot to take at one time ,,so when I broke ,I was broken .
Feeling betrayed ,it came out Mom was stirring trouble with my siblings even on her death bed ,
my kids knew it was coming but they didn't warn me
So I shut every one out of my life for 2 years ,
My Youngest stopped by to bring me food ,make sure I had clean clothes ,she had my ATM card so she paid my bills for me
So I came out of it a different man ,,and I don't recommend it for everyone
But now I know who I am ,why I am alive ,exactly what I want out of life and the type of woman I would like to share it with ,and now I have peace of mind .I still miss my girl ,but I am going to see her soon and let her know I still love her but I don't blame her ,that was a lot to be in the middle of .
If I ever loved you ,I always will
Now my family and I are close ,they know to never hold things back from me or to lie to me or I can live without them .
I know now I am never alone ,,someone was in the fire with me
I was a cry baby before ,always crying about all I have lost ,
how life is not fair ,bitter over all the takers .
Now I have a path ,and sometimes it seems lonely
But if thats what it took for me to see how blessed I am ,It was worth it
As I said ,,I would do it all again ,,I am not the same man that went into the furnace ,but it did come close to killing me ,I am much stronger now
And by the way ,thanks for the kindness
I now appreciate that a lot more now days too