How does it feel to forget?

I’ve been away from home (in a different country) for about 5 years; sometimes unwillingly.

I might get a chance to go for a visit this Christmas. I should be ecstatic at the thought. I am not :(
In fact I can’t seem to feel anything.

I don’t even know if i wanna visit anymore or not.

I wanna feel excited about it but can’t.

Anyone with the same experience?
Is this normal?

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MaryJanine · 61-69, F

I am beginning my eighth year in my apartment. Prior to that, I lived at home taking care of first my grandmother, then parents,one at a time, for a total of fifty-four years.

Things change, and my younger brother nagged at me until I sold the house. I was alone and needed a place to live. I happened to "luck into" an apartment managed by the man who bought my home. It is only a block-and-a-half from the house, but I am familiar with the stores, bus routes, and people still in the neighborhood. I wouldn't want to go elsewhere. I LIKE being on my own.

Go back. Visit. See what has changed since you were last there. You don't have to stay longer than you want to stay.