I am a link in making the world a less miserable, painful place, and I should allow myself to celebrate that.
I am doing good despite the chaos.
I am a powerful link in creation.
I have changed so much over the years that sometimes I hardly recognize myself. And it wasn't all confortable.
Much of that change came from being loved, and I am grateful to everyone who gave me that opportunity.
To be loved and to be seen are acts of transformation and growth..but loving and seeing? They are far greater.
Sometimes it can be overwhelming, even frustrating.
Yesterday, for example, it took me two hours to get home because too many people recognize me now from the work I’ve done in the world..and I do. They stop me to thank me and to ask what I believe and what I think should be done. And to ask for my help a lot of times.
I never chose to be in all these roles, or known as much as I am, but the more you try to fix things and mend wounds, the more responsibility seems to fall on you.
At this point I have taught hundreds.
I have sheltered so many.
I have treated hundreds and hundreds of people..perhaps thousands..
I have turned wasted land into beautiful little heavens and helped others do the same.
I have let my money flow outward through the practice of tezkhat , so that it becomes wealth of love and safety for families and communities, not something that sits still and only accumulates.
I have taken away from myself and given unto the world..things I have never had.
I have proved that lacking in love you can still create love.
Lending resources to people who needed a chance was something my Jewish grandmother taught me.
She taught me that helping others stand on their feet, giving them dignity and opportunity, is part of her tradition. It is part of Judaism to care for others and to build life around you.
And it is also part of my grandfather's heritage to give the vulnerable a fighting chance.
And to never ever back down, only change strategy.
In many ways I have created what I never had as a child. I sure did. And it has spread far enough that so many speak of me the way they once spoke about my grandfather and his ancestors. And speak to me the way they spoke to my grandfather.
People come to my house. Sometimes I even scold them, and they laugh, because they treat this place less like a home and more like some kind of shrine to my ancestors.
Strangers.
I am a solitary person by nature and I value quiet, but I also think it is beautiful that they see me that way.
It is not all so bad.
I know I vent a lot about communities here, but that is because my standards for results are incredibly high.
Change here is possible. It is slow but possible. My life wasn't wasted. I just want more of it, and sometimes it is hard to quiet that need.
I am greedy for positive changes.
I am a powerful link in creation.
I have changed so much over the years that sometimes I hardly recognize myself. And it wasn't all confortable.
Much of that change came from being loved, and I am grateful to everyone who gave me that opportunity.
To be loved and to be seen are acts of transformation and growth..but loving and seeing? They are far greater.
Sometimes it can be overwhelming, even frustrating.
Yesterday, for example, it took me two hours to get home because too many people recognize me now from the work I’ve done in the world..and I do. They stop me to thank me and to ask what I believe and what I think should be done. And to ask for my help a lot of times.
I never chose to be in all these roles, or known as much as I am, but the more you try to fix things and mend wounds, the more responsibility seems to fall on you.
At this point I have taught hundreds.
I have sheltered so many.
I have treated hundreds and hundreds of people..perhaps thousands..
I have turned wasted land into beautiful little heavens and helped others do the same.
I have let my money flow outward through the practice of tezkhat , so that it becomes wealth of love and safety for families and communities, not something that sits still and only accumulates.
I have taken away from myself and given unto the world..things I have never had.
I have proved that lacking in love you can still create love.
Lending resources to people who needed a chance was something my Jewish grandmother taught me.
She taught me that helping others stand on their feet, giving them dignity and opportunity, is part of her tradition. It is part of Judaism to care for others and to build life around you.
And it is also part of my grandfather's heritage to give the vulnerable a fighting chance.
And to never ever back down, only change strategy.
In many ways I have created what I never had as a child. I sure did. And it has spread far enough that so many speak of me the way they once spoke about my grandfather and his ancestors. And speak to me the way they spoke to my grandfather.
People come to my house. Sometimes I even scold them, and they laugh, because they treat this place less like a home and more like some kind of shrine to my ancestors.
Strangers.
I am a solitary person by nature and I value quiet, but I also think it is beautiful that they see me that way.
It is not all so bad.
I know I vent a lot about communities here, but that is because my standards for results are incredibly high.
Change here is possible. It is slow but possible. My life wasn't wasted. I just want more of it, and sometimes it is hard to quiet that need.
I am greedy for positive changes.
