how to get over the phobia of reading mail

i know it's sounds like a ridiculous fear to have, but i live alone , lived alone years and developed a phobia of reading my post, in case it's bad news or not want i want to see.....it's the same online, ive developed a fear of reading important emails in case its bad news or not good....i email a guy on google forums about my upgrade with my computer situation and i'm afraid to click on gmail and read his reply in case its bad news or he hasn't responded to my email query at all?

how do you get over this? please answer i need help.