Today is the day that is the day before I go out for another walk
To have a check up at the doctor's. A couple weeks ago I was feeling very strange physiologically,like my limbs were preparing to depart from the rest of my body, it kept being a sensed reality that I finally went to the doctor's to make an appointment, I was supposed to do some blood work but it didn't work out the place the doc said to go said to go another place, and that just made me take a taxi home that was my first self oriented taxi ride, and here I memorialize it for posterity haha
Well I need to take it easy if the walk is to not leave me panting and energy-less like last walk.
I have to get a lot of Musil read have done 2 chapters so far and have not been up for an hour yet, after each or every 2 chapters i'll make like a social butterfly and see what all else everyone is talking about here, it can be quite refreshing to see all you people being who you are, to see things differently is an idea i'm pushing hard with what I'm doing, but to get a taste of that medicine myself, I must either see that in my resources or from actual living people just wiling away their day, we're to grow together, forge new alliances, make peace by having growth and a higher purpose than just the lolz, which often come at the expense of those going through things, if we could see what careless words actually do, would we still be doing that? If so, that sort deserves zero respect till they shape up for real.
But I don't mean to make that the only point I try to keep hammering out, I do it though because it's necessary, this current society is the sickest and most backward it's been since perhaps the decadent Roman Empire with such fellers as Caligula and Nero.
Take it easy, nothing good comes from the feeling of coercion, in order to change, you must see the problem clearly, and want more than anything else to change for the better.
Change, when one is only campaigning for change, it leaves it open to be change for the worse, and we are living in that worse right now.
Well I need to take it easy if the walk is to not leave me panting and energy-less like last walk.
I have to get a lot of Musil read have done 2 chapters so far and have not been up for an hour yet, after each or every 2 chapters i'll make like a social butterfly and see what all else everyone is talking about here, it can be quite refreshing to see all you people being who you are, to see things differently is an idea i'm pushing hard with what I'm doing, but to get a taste of that medicine myself, I must either see that in my resources or from actual living people just wiling away their day, we're to grow together, forge new alliances, make peace by having growth and a higher purpose than just the lolz, which often come at the expense of those going through things, if we could see what careless words actually do, would we still be doing that? If so, that sort deserves zero respect till they shape up for real.
But I don't mean to make that the only point I try to keep hammering out, I do it though because it's necessary, this current society is the sickest and most backward it's been since perhaps the decadent Roman Empire with such fellers as Caligula and Nero.
Take it easy, nothing good comes from the feeling of coercion, in order to change, you must see the problem clearly, and want more than anything else to change for the better.
Change, when one is only campaigning for change, it leaves it open to be change for the worse, and we are living in that worse right now.
46-50, M