I realised something

I am always used by those whom I have supported thinking that they have suffered alot. The first case was a girl whom I thought was my bestfriend and I wanted to make her happy since she lost her mother in young age but due to her I suffered from accident when I gave her my scooter to ride and now she is not even in contact with me. Another guy was whom I dated, I thought what a hardworking guy, he deserves everything best so I would cook food for him while going to date so he shouldn't spend his money, once I saw he was wearing damage watch then I brought him new watch and that also rolex, later he thought he was something so I was into him and started humiliating me then I have to leave that bastard. Another is not other than my husband who hid about his so much debts but after knowing about his debts also I was ready to do full contribution to make the situation better, I kept all my golds, stopped shopping, eating fancy foods, I even stopped drinking milk and eating my favourite foods like chowmin for one whole year and I would calculate daily how much of debts is remain now, the day I cleared 15000$, I felt so proud, my father felt proud of me, I have even scolded those people who gave so much debts to my mother in law and making my husband responsible for no reason, I even saved 18000$ in another year but what my husband is doing right now, I can't digest, he just expects more and more from me. I just act to be the worst bitch ever existed but seeing the suffering of people's whom I love makes me do things beyond my capacity but those people's just end up using me and wanting more or humiliating me. I guess good people don't have any place in this selfish world. I should always keep the act of being worst bitch exist so people will not use me anymore.