I always remember
I hate how I have such a good memory of events, when I'd rather just forget them sometimes..
It is weird, but certain normal days just get stuck in my day for no reason.. nothing special about these days to get stuck in my memory, but they do... Like I remember back in 2020, that one day that I spent in a cafe since the morning, then I left and got food (which I also remember what it was) and went back home planning to study, but came across Emily in Paris, and ended up watching the entire season that day...
Another day in 2020 too I was watching Gilmore girls at night and ordered pasta in the middle of the night because damn they eat so much unhealthy stuff in that show.. I remember everything that night
Now anytime I watch these two shows, I remember days like that... and of course other shows, because I just remember all my past normal days, as if they are some sort of historical events or something 🤷♀️ I hate remembering this... They are normal days, but they remind me from when my mother was alive, of my room and of that house. I am usually filled with a weird feeling of nostalgia /sadness/but also relief of not having that life.. I do not know how is it possible to be nostalgic about something but also don't want that something..
It is weird, but certain normal days just get stuck in my day for no reason.. nothing special about these days to get stuck in my memory, but they do... Like I remember back in 2020, that one day that I spent in a cafe since the morning, then I left and got food (which I also remember what it was) and went back home planning to study, but came across Emily in Paris, and ended up watching the entire season that day...
Another day in 2020 too I was watching Gilmore girls at night and ordered pasta in the middle of the night because damn they eat so much unhealthy stuff in that show.. I remember everything that night
Now anytime I watch these two shows, I remember days like that... and of course other shows, because I just remember all my past normal days, as if they are some sort of historical events or something 🤷♀️ I hate remembering this... They are normal days, but they remind me from when my mother was alive, of my room and of that house. I am usually filled with a weird feeling of nostalgia /sadness/but also relief of not having that life.. I do not know how is it possible to be nostalgic about something but also don't want that something..
31-35, F
