I have commitment phobia.

I really want to get solve this phobia asap or else I better die. I just fear even taking small loan would give me nightmares even though I able to pay it.

Maybe not in relationship but more like in workplace. I rather taking low paid than high paid because I know the responsibility is huge and I am so scared if I screwed up.
I am tired feeling fail because I know I have zero support.

I want to overcome it at least. But it feels like I was about having a child. 😅
That's how crazy ass my mind thinking about commitment.

I am risk taker on my own but not when I have something on the stake. So folks/adults who had been through hardship/experience more than I do, please tell me how and give me some piece of advice. 😣🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻


Wishing you well, merry christmas and a happy new year. 💕