Aye aye hi how u doin ??
:)..life AH LIFE!
I feel blessed lately from all of my misfortunes, for they lead me to see, to feel and to hear with new eyes,
and grateful to all of the teachers and healers I have been met with, the lovers who guided me through the darker nights, and last but not least, greatly greatful to myself for the resilience and perseverance, for not loosing hope and faith, for being true and staying that way!
Now the cheesy intro is over, I can tell you how I am feeling loved, despite there is none really close to me, but I feel love waves around, here and there, frequently, daily, coming and coming.
Oops that too was kinda cheesy so I must try again :DD
So, I have sent my proposition to the municipality about a 3 months program on the island, including workshops, that I am so personally invested to do. I priced myself in a way that it feels good, it is still not much, but for me and for my life it is more than enough, enough to allow me to make a next movement and investment.
Fingers crossed. All crazy synchronicities are here, I just met with exactly the right people that I needed, knowledgable, bright, interested. Not as experienced, but I feel experienced enough to reach the point of providing a container for them, of course with help of others around..
The ladies contacted me too, regarding going for work in Bali again, to their next healing retreat in April. That too is positive.
Today I sung for my drum. For the first time in a long time. I got something there - I become - an ancient sound, scary almost, magical for sure, at least for me, in first person. Where will that take me, who knows, but I just love to play (and in a way, be played by it!!)
I am slowly buying colors for an art commission I got from a friend. That one will take its time.
As you see I opened the door to Mr Money and They decided to visit uh uh:D
Of course, I am moneyless at the moment, as I always am, but I feel there's plenty of money around and available to me and for me, and that isn't a f00king affirmation it's a true felt thing! Perhaps because it is backed by action? just sayin 🙈
What else, thank you for reading.
I think I will make a coffee and try to chill here for a bit, since my life lately is pretty fast, unlike my life usually for the past years.
I am also in love again, but this time it feels safe, he is with another woman, and so I can love from afar without getting the expectations running and simply enjoying being in the state of in-love. In the end of the day, I love to be in love!..
Something that is making things harder is that I have to wake up at 6 every morning to feed the cats, and the whole process takes about an hour, to feed the house cat, the street cats, the garbage cats, to fill in their waters, then clean up because the owners of the buildings don't like seeing dirty trays around, normal, long story short around 7am I am fully awake and can't go back to sleep anymore ...am sleeping about 5 hours and it feels I need more, but I can't get myself to sleep earlier. Okay sorry for the rumbling now.
L O V E
💜
Pray for my project to be funded, if that is for the best of all of course......
I feel blessed lately from all of my misfortunes, for they lead me to see, to feel and to hear with new eyes,
and grateful to all of the teachers and healers I have been met with, the lovers who guided me through the darker nights, and last but not least, greatly greatful to myself for the resilience and perseverance, for not loosing hope and faith, for being true and staying that way!
Now the cheesy intro is over, I can tell you how I am feeling loved, despite there is none really close to me, but I feel love waves around, here and there, frequently, daily, coming and coming.
Oops that too was kinda cheesy so I must try again :DD
So, I have sent my proposition to the municipality about a 3 months program on the island, including workshops, that I am so personally invested to do. I priced myself in a way that it feels good, it is still not much, but for me and for my life it is more than enough, enough to allow me to make a next movement and investment.
Fingers crossed. All crazy synchronicities are here, I just met with exactly the right people that I needed, knowledgable, bright, interested. Not as experienced, but I feel experienced enough to reach the point of providing a container for them, of course with help of others around..
The ladies contacted me too, regarding going for work in Bali again, to their next healing retreat in April. That too is positive.
Today I sung for my drum. For the first time in a long time. I got something there - I become - an ancient sound, scary almost, magical for sure, at least for me, in first person. Where will that take me, who knows, but I just love to play (and in a way, be played by it!!)
I am slowly buying colors for an art commission I got from a friend. That one will take its time.
As you see I opened the door to Mr Money and They decided to visit uh uh:D
Of course, I am moneyless at the moment, as I always am, but I feel there's plenty of money around and available to me and for me, and that isn't a f00king affirmation it's a true felt thing! Perhaps because it is backed by action? just sayin 🙈
What else, thank you for reading.
I think I will make a coffee and try to chill here for a bit, since my life lately is pretty fast, unlike my life usually for the past years.
I am also in love again, but this time it feels safe, he is with another woman, and so I can love from afar without getting the expectations running and simply enjoying being in the state of in-love. In the end of the day, I love to be in love!..
Something that is making things harder is that I have to wake up at 6 every morning to feed the cats, and the whole process takes about an hour, to feed the house cat, the street cats, the garbage cats, to fill in their waters, then clean up because the owners of the buildings don't like seeing dirty trays around, normal, long story short around 7am I am fully awake and can't go back to sleep anymore ...am sleeping about 5 hours and it feels I need more, but I can't get myself to sleep earlier. Okay sorry for the rumbling now.
L O V E
💜
Pray for my project to be funded, if that is for the best of all of course......
