I think I'm finally at peace with being alone again
Yes, I love my friends so much, but after breaking up with my ex, I isolated myself from everyone to process the initial pain of the break up, and after the pain was gone, I felt empty, then after feeling empty, I felt amazing. I felt happy, energetic, enthusiastic, and no stress whatsoever. I felt for the first time in awhile, at peace, not having to worry about someone.
After I felt at peace, I sought to make new friends, not alot, just a few (1-3), and I did, but I'm keeping a distance, not out of distrust or dislike of them, but for my own well-being, to not get too attached and possibly develop feelings for them, for my sake to keep my peace, and for them to not have to deal with me clinging to them.
I've been slowly getting back into drawing again. In the past two months, I've drawn more times then than in the past 3 years, and I've been enjoying it too. I forgot how much I enjoyed drawing. I find it therapeutic :>
I've been spending more time with my siblings now. I've been playing video-games with my little brother more often now compared to back then, and I've been enjoying it. We've made a new Minecraft world, and started a new save in Minecraft Dungeons :>
As for what happened with my crush I was talking to, she went off to college and seemed moreless uninterested, so I've emotional withdrawed from pursuing a relationship with her and put those feelings for her to rest and moved on, to leave her be, and again, to keep my own peace of mind.
Yes, there are times where I feel lonely, but it's not too often. My friends are there for me when I need them, and I'm there for them when they need me.
After I felt at peace, I sought to make new friends, not alot, just a few (1-3), and I did, but I'm keeping a distance, not out of distrust or dislike of them, but for my own well-being, to not get too attached and possibly develop feelings for them, for my sake to keep my peace, and for them to not have to deal with me clinging to them.
I've been slowly getting back into drawing again. In the past two months, I've drawn more times then than in the past 3 years, and I've been enjoying it too. I forgot how much I enjoyed drawing. I find it therapeutic :>
I've been spending more time with my siblings now. I've been playing video-games with my little brother more often now compared to back then, and I've been enjoying it. We've made a new Minecraft world, and started a new save in Minecraft Dungeons :>
As for what happened with my crush I was talking to, she went off to college and seemed moreless uninterested, so I've emotional withdrawed from pursuing a relationship with her and put those feelings for her to rest and moved on, to leave her be, and again, to keep my own peace of mind.
Yes, there are times where I feel lonely, but it's not too often. My friends are there for me when I need them, and I'm there for them when they need me.
