I Appreciate the Little Things In Life

Since i was a kid I was obsessed with money.I used to sell snacks in the school etc.I had a satisfaction from it ,i knew that I'm worth something.Tho I'm very young my life has became hard ,i have dragged my self in the business world.So many people depend on me ,also lots of friend became jalouse.I have one friend and she is like really nice to me ,we talk a lot.And i told her that I'm in love with her ,she told me the same but couse of her school we can't be together.She is far away and it really hurts.I just want to tell you money is not happiness ,it's just an illusion.I lost the feeling for happiness ,when you buy something for example car,phone.....I don't have the feeling any more ,it's just emptiness.Things became nothing ,it's just an object.I would like to take a rest from all of this but i will need a few more years to secure my life ,it's going to be a hell till than.