I really empathize with you. I don't think this is your fault at all. You sound like you need help with depression and anxiety. I hear you and it's not that easy to just change things, as some might think. You sound like you're more overwhelmed by everything in life and this definitely needs attention and taking care of. The very fact that you said "I don't know how to change it", tells me that you're stuck, but please know that you can get help. I hope you'll ask your doctor to give you something that will help. You're dealing with something that is overwhelming for you and it comes out in your everyday activities and that's nothing to ignore. Whatever it is, I hope you will address it and get the help you need and there's nothing shameful about that. I'm proud of you that you're aware that you need help with your emotions. Perhaps you have a hormone imbalance but I do hope you'll get things checked out. Let me know how you do. I'm sorry you're dealing with this. ♥🫂
