December 25, 2025 morning thoughts
A little after making my last post, I finished The Gunslinger, the first in The Dark Tower series.
I slept for about 15 hours, and feel like I could sleep some more.
What did you all get for Christmas? I got a sweater, chocolates and a 20 dollar bill. And a Skip gift card, Skip is like Uber I think and i've never used Skip before, might be a blessing!!
Whenever i'd normally scream at my mice, i'll say Merry Christmas to them in a high falsetto.
I love these short days, they're getting longer slowly though so I gotta be watching my films and shows in the dark when I can.
Dad's beginning a new anti-psychotic med that will take a couple of weeks to take effect and then they'll try to assess him again. He called last night 2 times from the hospital but I missed them, he must have just want to hear my voice and wish me a Merry Christmas, it cannot be a fun experience for my dad, but he does have a neat rapport with the nurses and patients.
Brother brought a 2 servings worth meal with some pecan pie yesterday, so I'll be eating like a king for today and some tomorrow if I can make it last.
I've never in my life been in a situation like this, it was getting bad right before this, dad was slipping for quite awhile and I was getting so mad too often with him. When I inevitably miss him I must also remember how it was how everyday something would go wrong.
My mind is travelling much smoother to a place of equanimity but there is a sadness, and a dread too at the base, very subtle, I see it as something I move away from and go into the light, like in Poltergeist.
Great reading, watching, listening is in store for me in abundance, and a place SW to share and include the lovely people here I presently adore and find really nice, this is living pretty good, and I thank you all for being who you all are.
I slept for about 15 hours, and feel like I could sleep some more.
What did you all get for Christmas? I got a sweater, chocolates and a 20 dollar bill. And a Skip gift card, Skip is like Uber I think and i've never used Skip before, might be a blessing!!
Whenever i'd normally scream at my mice, i'll say Merry Christmas to them in a high falsetto.
I love these short days, they're getting longer slowly though so I gotta be watching my films and shows in the dark when I can.
Dad's beginning a new anti-psychotic med that will take a couple of weeks to take effect and then they'll try to assess him again. He called last night 2 times from the hospital but I missed them, he must have just want to hear my voice and wish me a Merry Christmas, it cannot be a fun experience for my dad, but he does have a neat rapport with the nurses and patients.
Brother brought a 2 servings worth meal with some pecan pie yesterday, so I'll be eating like a king for today and some tomorrow if I can make it last.
I've never in my life been in a situation like this, it was getting bad right before this, dad was slipping for quite awhile and I was getting so mad too often with him. When I inevitably miss him I must also remember how it was how everyday something would go wrong.
My mind is travelling much smoother to a place of equanimity but there is a sadness, and a dread too at the base, very subtle, I see it as something I move away from and go into the light, like in Poltergeist.
Great reading, watching, listening is in store for me in abundance, and a place SW to share and include the lovely people here I presently adore and find really nice, this is living pretty good, and I thank you all for being who you all are.
46-50, M