I'm going to be alone on Christmas

meaning im not going to see my family. I'm kinda ok with it. which is odd to me. I don't hate them or anything and i do love them. sometimes I just feel like I'm out of place and don't belong there. I zoomed witj h them earlier and I didn't feel bad about not being there with them. I just feel better now I'm around them as much I can't explain it.