I Want to Be Healthy
I suppose this is the best place for this...,
The thing is, I am healthy. I’m happy and I’m healthy.
Before I got pregnant with my second child, I was in a very bad place in my life. It was so bad that I developed these attacks, where I pass out. People thought they were seizures because of all the shaking, I was doing while these attacks occurred.
Then I got pregnant and my health got worse. But I was going to fight to keep my pregnancy no matter what. Knowing it was complete hell for me. The attacks got worse. The passing out, seizure like shakes, feeling sick, no memory of it whatsoever. And during my pregnancy, I was in excruciating pains. I could barely walk. Could barely move. And with the extra stress I dealt with didn’t help at all. It only made it worse. I hated for my daughter to see me like this. After my baby boy was born, the attacks let up some. But the pains are still there.
I can’t have anymore children because of my health. And I don’t want anymore. This last pregnancy, I could’ve lost my baby. I could’ve died, leaving the child I already had without a mother. Knowing the risks, I don’t ever want to be pregnant again. My children already born, they need their mother.
Hopefully the doctors can find what’s wrong so they can fix it. I still struggle from time to time. I can’t do too much. Perhaps my age have something to do with it. I don’t know. Either way, I need to be MORE healthy for my little ones.
The thing is, I am healthy. I’m happy and I’m healthy.
Before I got pregnant with my second child, I was in a very bad place in my life. It was so bad that I developed these attacks, where I pass out. People thought they were seizures because of all the shaking, I was doing while these attacks occurred.
Then I got pregnant and my health got worse. But I was going to fight to keep my pregnancy no matter what. Knowing it was complete hell for me. The attacks got worse. The passing out, seizure like shakes, feeling sick, no memory of it whatsoever. And during my pregnancy, I was in excruciating pains. I could barely walk. Could barely move. And with the extra stress I dealt with didn’t help at all. It only made it worse. I hated for my daughter to see me like this. After my baby boy was born, the attacks let up some. But the pains are still there.
I can’t have anymore children because of my health. And I don’t want anymore. This last pregnancy, I could’ve lost my baby. I could’ve died, leaving the child I already had without a mother. Knowing the risks, I don’t ever want to be pregnant again. My children already born, they need their mother.
Hopefully the doctors can find what’s wrong so they can fix it. I still struggle from time to time. I can’t do too much. Perhaps my age have something to do with it. I don’t know. Either way, I need to be MORE healthy for my little ones.
41-45, F
