A very important question…

So I realize my brain is bad. I thought I’d be fine in nursing. I’m a first year nursing student and soon to be a second year. I feel so behind and whenever there’s a demo, I fear I won’t do good for my patients one day so I decided I want to take a gap year to catch up then transfer to another school because everyone wants that for me. Then when my father suggested I take a gap year my aunt said that won’t be good. My aunt said I’ll take a back subject and things but I think either way it would happen if I transfer. I just really need a mental break to which I can catch up in my phase. I feel bad though for my parents now that I think about it because earlier while thinking, I realize it might be selfish to stop for a year. Others can do it so why can’t I? I feel so overstimulated right now because I feel confuse what to do. I know that even if I take a gap year I’ll still have a hard time but I really feel so behind… I don’t know what to do 🥹